Alex is stopping by in a couple hours to say goodbye and I am going to be a puddle.
Girl, I just wanted to tell you that I think you're a wonderful person and parent. I am sorry that you are having a hard time with Kylie right now, but I don't think you should blame yourself for any of it. Sometimes you go through a rough patch as a mother and you wouldn't be the first mom to second guess everything. Just know that you are a loving, committed mother and that is more than a lot of moms twice your age can say. I just know everything will work out for you guys. Lots of hugs. <3
Oh my goodness I just now saw this! Whomever sent me this a few days ago - thank you so so much! I am grateful to you for taking the time to write all of this to me. I appreciate it so much more than words can express. Things have been incredibly difficult, and this just brightened my day a bit. Thank you again. <3
#Tears are streaming down my face right now
danixoeyandaudree replied to your post: I don’t know what I believe anymore wh…
Just follow your heart and instincts lady
Sometimes instincts are wrong though because of the influence of environment, societal constructs, etc. and I just feel stuck now with studies that contradict one another and a child who is completely out of control. I feel helpless and like I’ve been parenting wrong this whole time or something. Like am I even fit to be a parent? I have no idea anymore. I’m so frustrated and stressed out. =/
She lined up some of her dolls and animals along the headboard. :)
Our first cold morning before school!
Kylie at gymnastics!
(these are the only pictures I’ve been able to take, but hopefully I will have better ones in the future!)
Kids Night at the diner a couple weeks ago:)
I’m loving the new family lounge at our mall! Kylie has a little potty and little sink just for herself. :)
Kylie is being evaluated sometime in the next week because of her constant outbursts at school. She is definitely a very sensitive child and I would not be surprised if she has a mild sensory disorder or something similar to it. Anyway, the reason for the evaluation isn’t for a diagnosis, but really a way for us to figure out what we can do to help her (and help ourselves).
I know I have pretty much abandoned my mommy blog lately and have been spending all my time on my personal blog. My life is pretty crazy and my personal blog is much more of an outlet than this one. Here’s a bit of an update:
I started my job at LUSH about a month ago and it’s so much more stressful than I ever imagined. Thankfully most of my coworkers are pretty awesome and helpful.
The girl I am very into at the moment is moving 12 hours away in 10 days and I am trying not to think about it except it’s often all that is on my mind. It will definitely be a good move for her and I know I will be okay, but for now I am struggling. Hopefully I will be able to visit her in a few short months. (Note: We are not together nor planning to be together, but she is an amazing person and I am lucky to have her in my life. My friendship with her comes first over anything else that happens/has happened between us.)
Kylie is doing awesome. I have a whole bunch of photos I need to post to update you all with. She started gymnastics lessons last week and is already catching on quickly. I don’t think she will stick with it for more than a year or two though because she keeps talking about playing baseball and/or soccer. She is finally 100% potty trained at school which means she only wears diapers at night now (and even then wakes up dry 90% of the time).
My parents are currently out of town for three weeks which is great in the sense that I can have anyone over and they won’t be around to bitch about it (they are incredibly queer-phobic), but it also sucks because they are my main source for babysitting.
I am having surgery to put a tube in my ear in October - not that it will really resolve the problems I am having with infections and hearing loss but it’s a temporary fix until I can hopefully find something more permanent.
Personal blog (definitely NSFW): withoutawarning